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<\/a><\/p>\nI have perhaps always been a bit ambivalent about this song. Although it was written while The Last Psalm<\/i> was still together, it was not performed then. Arguably I did not include it for TerraNova<\/i> because I had not conceived vocals for it, but I also did not suggest it for Cardiac Output<\/i>. On the other hand, when I started recording the midi-based songs, this was the opener of the second disk; and Collision<\/i> used it to open many concerts and as the opener of the album Of Worlds<\/i>. It is a Christian song in the sense that it undermines worldly values and concepts; it doesn’t put forward the answers. It is very much about how modern knowledge without God leaves us without answers.<\/p>\n
I ranked it twenty-sixth for the song itself, but this recording<\/a>, from the Collision Of Worlds<\/i> album, came in at number twelve, and Tristan likes the song, tying for number nine on his list. (The ranking system is explained in connection with the first song, linked below.) I do very much like how the title, which begins as a suggestion that I’ve learned otherwise, comes to the end to mean that–well, that would be a spoiler.<\/p>\n The lyrics were posted previously<\/a> in connection with Cardiac Output<\/i> mostly because I was looking for songs with minimal repetition in the words; There is an extensive discussion<\/a> about it in connection with Collision<\/i>.<\/p>\n I Use to Think<\/i><\/b><\/font>.<\/p>\n So here are the words:<\/p>\n I use to think I loved you, and I told you once before I use to think that living meant that life would be worthwhile, I use to think that heaven was unquestionably true, I use to think that reason was the basis of my mind, I can only hope you benefit from the song in some way. I will continue with additional songs in the future.<\/i><\/p>\n<\/p>\n *****<\/p>\n Previous web log song posts:<\/p>\n #301: The Song “Holocaust”<\/a><\/i> | #307: The Song “Time Bomb”<\/a><\/i> | #311: The Song “Passing Through the Portal”<\/a><\/i> | #314: The Song “Walkin’ In the Woods”<\/a><\/i> | #317: The Song “That’s When I’ll Believe”<\/a><\/i> | #320: The Song “Free”<\/a><\/i> | #322: The Song “Voices”<\/a><\/i> | #326: The Song “Mountain, Mountain”<\/a><\/i> | #328: The Song “Still Small Voice”<\/i><\/a> | #334: The Song “Convinced”<\/a><\/i> | #337: The Song “Selfish Love”<\/a><\/i> | #340: The Song “A Man Like Paul”<\/a><\/i> | #341: The Song “Joined Together”<\/a><\/i> | #346: The Song “If We Don’t Tell Them”<\/a><\/i> | #349: The Song “I Can’t Resist You’re Love”<\/a><\/i><\/p>\n Next song:<\/i> God Said It Is Good<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" This is mark Joseph “young” blog entry #353, on the subject of The Song “I Use to Think”. I wrote this sixteenth song on the list almost certainly in late 1974 or early 1975. I was reading a lot of C. S. Lewis at the time, and I recall at least playing it if not … Continue reading #353: The Song “I Use to Think”<\/span>
\nThat as each day continued I would love you more and more.
\nI knew what I was feeling, and I thought that it was real,
\nBut now I find that anything I feel is nothing more than how I feel.
\nThey tell us in biology
\nIt’s just a change in chemistry;
\nIt’s just as plain as it can be
\nThat love is not reality.
\nIt’s not for you, it’s not for me–
\nA child is for posterity,
\nAnd if there are too many, we
\nMust bend to the society
\nIt can’t be from up above;
\nIs that all there is to love?<\/p>\n
\nAnd so I searched for something, and I traveled many’a mile.
\nI thought life was important, and I sought to find out why,
\nBut now I guess that anything I thought before was just another lie.
\nThey tell us in astronomy
\nThat’s one impossibility.
\nWe’re just a tiny speck, you see,
\nCompared to one small galaxy.
\nWhat happens here could never be
\nOf such universality
\nTo have a lasting memory
\nBeyond the world of you and me.
\nThe sweat and the blood and strife–
\nIs that all there is to life?<\/p>\n
\nThat God was up in heaven, and was watching what we do.
\nI thought if I did good then I would surely reach His throne.
\nBut now I find that good is nothing more than just a preference of my own.
\nThey tell us in philosophy
\nThat that is all mythology.
\nIt obviously couldn’t be–
\nA God is an absurdity,
\nAnd if there is no God, you see,
\nThere can be no morality.
\nIt’s only the majority
\nPreserving the society
\nIt strikes me as rather odd:
\nIs that all there is to God?<\/p>\n
\nThat reason was not doubted, and would not be for all time.
\nAnd so I did my thinking, and I thought through all my plans,
\nBut reason is worth nothing now, because it’s clear that it is based on chance.
\nThey tell us in psychology
\nThat thinking works mechanic’ly:
\nA thought from our heredity
\nIs formed environmentally;
\nThey tell us in anatomy
\nThat thinking works electric’ly:
\nA jolt of electricity,
\nA slightly altered chemistry.
\nA brain can be built and bought.
\nIs that all there is to thought?<\/p>\n<\/blockquote>\n